Friday, 12 March 2004
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finally its the last day of school liao... phew....
well really thanks to ah huay and yanyi for consoling me the next day after i posted my blog. i am not the kind of person who can be depressed for a very long time. even though i was feeling abit terrible that day in school, i doubt i really showed it. but thats really not becoz i was hiding my feelings, its just that i was really fine liao... so i was back to normal again.... anyway dun wanna talk abt it liao....
recently i was thinking of something. i realise whats so striking abt our generation is that we are more self-centred. we tend to express our views without considering about our ppl's feelings. and the justification that we give ourselves is: this is my right. this is MY view and u dun have to listen if u dun wan...too bad if u dun agree with me. well of course not all ppl are like that lah... i am just speaking this out or several of my experiences these few years (this is especially true when i read other ppl's blog). perhaps i am also one of them?? who knows?? i bet i must have hurt alot of ppl when i say things. but i can swear that when i speak, i dun feel that it is MY view and that u dun have to listen. i am not that kind of ppl... i hurt ppl unintentionally( all thanks to my stupid big mouth and lack of brain-processing)...
i once read an article, which tells us that in whatever we do, we should think less of that word "ME" and "MINE". dun always think of ourselves, our rights, preferences. dun make the word "ME" a siginificant word... this perhaps implys that sometimes we should consider more for others. i must always put this in mind, coz i feel that sometimes i am abit selfish... i am going to change my blog title, becoz i find that it is also a sign of "self-centredness"...
another thing in my mind now is that i think ppl around me are already starting to work hard liao. and yet here i am still slacking and lazing around. why?? why?? my school work are beginning to lag behind and on the other hand, others are catching up fast already!! how can i find motivation to study?? last week heard about zhss seniors taking their A levels result. the shock is that a few of them actually couldn't get into the university. this panicked me, just think: after spending 2 years in jc, and i still cannot get in?? how am i going to face my parents and friends?? if i really cannot get in, i really damn sia suay loh...( just think of my L1R5...)
oh well. thats abt it. holidays are starting... and im not looking forward to it becoz after the holidays will be the block tests.... argh.... sianz....
8:23:00 pm;
