Wednesday, 24 March 2004
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wah.... look at the date today... its already wed!! i haven been blogging for a week liao... oh gosh... anyway, THIS IS A NOTICE FOR ALL PPL OUT THERE: MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING... WOAH...
anyway, haven been blogging for so long becoz i was preparing for my block test this week. but actually, i think i didn't study much leh... also continue to slack and slack... sighz... im really hopeless liao... tmr no need to go sch becoz i got no papers tmr... hooray!! den friday still got CLA paper 1, which is not a big problem lah...
despite the fact that i am already in year 2, sometimes i still wonder: how will i be if i had chosen to go to tj last year?? would i be more diligent?? will my studies be better?? i also wonder, what if i had chosen to continue taking higher chinese?? i dunno why lah, but i still think of these stupid questions from time to time. for all my life, its seems as though i have not been "stretching" my potential. i have almost settled for the easier way out. like choosing ny over tj, taking CLA instead of higher chinese. why couldn't i just put myself to more challenges?? yihui has scolded me for this last time(not really scold lah), and i really sort of agree with her leh. perhaps the only challenge that i posed for myself is taking 4As. but even so, i feel like dropping maths too, becoz i just dun like it. so why did i take it in the 1st place??? i have made so many funny and weird choices in my life, and many of them lousy/wrong choices(huiping knows it best)...
haiz.... i better dun get so depressed and pessimistic. its so unlike of me loh... what's done cannot be undone. i have made my choices, so just stick with them lah. I WILL NOT DROP MATHS.... I WILL NOT!! at least one thing i can say abt my life in NY is that i enjoyed everything(except studying loh) i have done... being in NY had allowed me to make countless good frens and buddies whom i can count on(too many to count liao), got to know kind, crappy and great teachers who make my studying more fun(mr teo, ms goh etc), and the chance to experience stuffs(eg OGL and bai yun gang) that i will never forget...
hey, 3 cheers to NY!! hooray!! hahaha....
3:43:00 pm;
