Wednesday, 21 April 2004
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in the school library now. suppose to have CLA lesson, but ms goh got sth on... so here i am slacking in the library........
had a bad bad morning. they were quarelling.... again.... yes... over money again... i just dun understand why there's such a selfish and unreasonable person. she has done so so much for the family, and yet he did not appreciate it at all. he always think that she is stingy and like to save money unnecessary... is he crazy or wat?? he's selfish....SELFISH!!!! he thinks that by giving money to the family means that he has got a lot of contribution meh? does he know about the family's expenses every month? has he even bothered to ask in the first place?? he asked for money from her today, and when she could only give $20, he gave her that look. yah that look which i hate.... he began grumbling.... she got very agitated. me too. den she cried again.... but she stopped her tears as she still gotta go to work....
as the head of the family, he made her cry so many times. everytime say such hurting words to her... all the words are like sharp knives stabbing into her heart. painful... sad... angry.... and still pain.... i thot a wife is meant to be dote on, or at least never to say such hurting words. she was right i think. to him, his frens are perhaps more important to than the family. he would rather spend time drinking and dun wanna come home early. he said that he know he's broke, but why does he still go drinking??? everytime she say him, he will say," u dun understand one lah..." yes, we dun understand u. but DO U UNDERSTAND HER PROBLEMS???? U DON'T! u only think of yourself, u think that u are the only one having problems,and others are not understanding enough. but u think u know her problems?? u think she's having a good life meh?? without her scrimp and save, we would not have been able to last till now. instead of saying a big thanks to such a considerate and nice wife, u are actually treating her like this. i really know why she is so heartbroken. her efforts for the family are not recognised by u at all, probably u just treat her like a woman at home who washes clothes and take care of everything for u. when u have a job and money is sufficient at home, i can see that everything seems well. but when we are poor, u are not a husband who goes through thick and thin with your wife. u grumble about your wife when we're broke. u dun thank her for everything she has done.
DO U REALLY KNOW WHAT U ARE SAYING AND DOING ARE HEART-BREAKING??
i feel sorry for her. and i feel guilty too.
11:55:00 am;
